Memories That Will Never Be Forgottenn

Life is not what I would consider a box of chocolates. Everyone goes through hard times , good memories and even bad ones. I remember years and dates like the back of my hand!

          October 2009: I remember the day I met you. I was going through a hard time on that specific dark stormy night. Bad things happened another and you just appeared out of nowhere to put your hand out for me. We clicked real quick and you became my best friend within a week. You made me feel like a little girl who just walked into a candy store. So comforting and easy to talk with.

          I remember when I met your family. Your Mom was like a second mom to me. Long brown hair with a big smile on her face; always given out hugs like they are words of advice. Your sister was younger then me by a year. She was always singing some random song but knew the lyrics oh so well.

Winter 2009: Freezing cold weather, rain boots everyday, sweatshirts to keep my hair dry, and some hot chocolate to keep my day going. You were the one to keep me warm when I was shaking uncontrollably. You were the one to reach out when I was down on those gloomy days! You were the one who would make sure I was dry even though you were so wet that you looked like a dog who just got out of the bath.

I remember our first fight. You liked to flirt with any girl that had boobs and a butt. Someone who would give you any attention that a boy would like. But yet, every day you told me that you loved me and wanted me to be your girlfriend. You lied like the Grinch did on Christmas. You mislead me, why?

May 2010: I remember our first concert. That was my birthday gift from you and my Mommy. Daughtry and Lifehouse. When we walked into Arco, I could only feel the ground shake while they were practicing the music. My heart beating so fast that all I could do was smile. One of those smiles that you can’t wipe off your face. Anticipation ; just wanting the concert to start . Every emotion running through my body , not sure which one to express!

June 2010: I remember the day you told me we couldn’t be friends anymore. I cried harder then a baby would. I punched walls trying to imagine it was a fruity little dream. I sat in my bright bedroom, wishing that you would change your mind. To sum it up in one word, I was beyond devastated.

July 2010: Worst day of my life. Tears rolling down my cheeks faster then I could take a single breath. Frustration as if I couldn’t take a step out of the quicksand that I was buried in. Anger that couldn’t be contained. Fists hitting objects as if I was in a fight. Depression with life and just wanting to be in a cocoon and sleep forever. Not wake up the next day feeling.

September 2011: A year has passed since the day you broke my heart. It took me a long time to get over everything you did to me. Me being a forgiving person, I forgave you. You cant seem to forgive yourself, but that’s on you. I am back in square one, where are you in this sticky situation? I realize that what happened was all for a good cause. I now have someone who cherishes me, who loves me for who I am, who treats me with respect, and who deserves every ounce of my attention. So thank you for hurting me and giving up a great relationship. Now I have a better life and your still in pain and doubt.

“Pictures will never change, even when the people in them do”

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all