" She's the girl that has a few best friends and doesn't need anymore. The girl that laughs the hardest at her own jokes. She's the girl that will hang up on you and call you right back and say sorry. She's the girl who will never leave your side when you need her. The girl who will go out of her way to cheer you up. She's the girl who says she isn't ticklish, but really is. She's the girl who will not give up on you if she really believes in you. She's the girl who believes in loving somebody forever. She's me.. "
Today has been an extremely difficult day for me. As I was sitting in my bedroom, I came across this quote. Really sums up who I personally am. And maybe a lot of other girls. It made me smile and bring some light to my day. Thought I would share it to all the girls who are in this same category. :)
“Did you hear who is pregnant this school year?” asked Elizabeth, ready to gossip.
“No, who!” Katherine replied with a concerned look on her face, hoping Elizabeth didn’t guess she was.
“Dominique!”
With a sigh of relief, she said, “well, that isn’t surprising at all. I mean she puts herself out there all the time and always tries to get attention. Did you honestly think it wasn’t gonna happen sooner or later?” “I was just trying to give her some faith, guess I shouldn’t have, huh?”
Sitting in my overly small desk, I overhear this conversation. Knowing exactly who they are talking about, getting a fat knot in my stomach. Like the time your mom makes something for dinner that makes you sick every time, and all you can do is throw up at the smell. My face slowly turning pale, eyes closing not understanding why this would happen. Not knowing if this was true or not was so difficult.
Sticking my nose into something I know I shouldn’t, I did.
“Wait, so you’re telling me this is 100% true? I can’t believe that this would happen. She is smarter then that. You are lying right?” I replied. Trying my hardest to believe they were just lying, trying to start rumors because they hated this girl. Giving this girl all the credit I possibly could. Trying to stick up for her by being in denial. Unfortunately, my luck was going nowhere.
Elizabeth replied with sarcasm, “Come on Nicole, you honestly think SHE wouldn’t get pregnant before school ended? I mean, you’re just waiting to be called stupid.”
Knowing all the words that she had said were completely right, all I had to say for myself was “I was just trying to be hopeful.” You would never guess how sick a simple conversation could make you feel. Your stomach turning and feeling like it is doing back flips. Especially when that person had such a bright future and could be an extremely successful person, but now, that may not be the case …
Life is not what I would consider a box of chocolates. Everyone goes through hard times , good memories and even bad ones. I remember years and dates like the back of my hand!
October 2009: I remember the day I met you. I was going through a hard time on that specific dark stormy night. Bad things happened another and you just appeared out of nowhere to put your hand out for me. We clicked real quick and you became my best friend within a week. You made me feel like a little girl who just walked into a candy store. So comforting and easy to talk with.
I remember when I met your family. Your Mom was like a second mom to me. Long brown hair with a big smile on her face; always given out hugs like they are words of advice. Your sister was younger then me by a year. She was always singing some random song but knew the lyrics oh so well.
Winter 2009: Freezing cold weather, rain boots everyday, sweatshirts to keep my hair dry, and some hot chocolate to keep my day going. You were the one to keep me warm when I was shaking uncontrollably. You were the one to reach out when I was down on those gloomy days! You were the one who would make sure I was dry even though you were so wet that you looked like a dog who just got out of the bath.
I remember our first fight. You liked to flirt with any girl that had boobs and a butt. Someone who would give you any attention that a boy would like. But yet, every day you told me that you loved me and wanted me to be your girlfriend. You lied like the Grinch did on Christmas. You mislead me, why?
May 2010: I remember our first concert. That was my birthday gift from you and my Mommy. Daughtry and Lifehouse. When we walked into Arco, I could only feel the ground shake while they were practicing the music. My heart beating so fast that all I could do was smile. One of those smiles that you can’t wipe off your face. Anticipation ; just wanting the concert to start . Every emotion running through my body , not sure which one to express!
June 2010: I remember the day you told me we couldn’t be friends anymore. I cried harder then a baby would. I punched walls trying to imagine it was a fruity little dream. I sat in my bright bedroom, wishing that you would change your mind. To sum it up in one word, I was beyond devastated.
July 2010: Worst day of my life. Tears rolling down my cheeks faster then I could take a single breath. Frustration as if I couldn’t take a step out of the quicksand that I was buried in. Anger that couldn’t be contained. Fists hitting objects as if I was in a fight. Depression with life and just wanting to be in a cocoon and sleep forever. Not wake up the next day feeling.
September 2011: A year has passed since the day you broke my heart. It took me a long time to get over everything you did to me. Me being a forgiving person, I forgave you. You cant seem to forgive yourself, but that’s on you. I am back in square one, where are you in this sticky situation? I realize that what happened was all for a good cause. I now have someone who cherishes me, who loves me for who I am, who treats me with respect, and who deserves every ounce of my attention. So thank you for hurting me and giving up a great relationship. Now I have a better life and your still in pain and doubt.
“Pictures will never change, even when the people in them do”
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
This is how you love her ; this is how you kiss her , even on the cheek ; make sure you kiss her in the rain because she WILL like it ; you need to be passionate all the time toward her ; write letters to her making her feel special ; when she is cold , give her your jacket or sweatshirt so she stays warm ; this is how you walk with her at night to be romantic ; this is how you love on her , and look deep into her glossy eyes ; hold her hand so she feels connected to you ; always remind her how much she means to you ; this is how you hold her tight ; this is how you open doors for her ; don’t pressure her to do something she isn’t comfortable with doing ; hug her unexpectedly , surprising ones are the best ; DON’T EVER CHEAT ON HER , UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES ; this is how you talk to her with respect ; tell her she is beautiful , not sexy ; this is how you get her to understand and realize she can trust you with anything , and lastly , good luck ! (:
Blonde hair or purple hair? Green eyes or blue? Small nose with a point? Everyone has different features on their face. Usually you have some of the same features as your mother and others like your father.
See, my face looks more like my mom’s. I have strawberry blonde hair. Absolutely no split ends. Tends to turn dark in the winter and light in the summer. Short bangs that barely cover my forehead and sway to the left. Almost like how a fan gently moves your hair in the wind.
The shape of my face is a mixture between my mom and dad. Round faced but comes sort of to a point at the chin, but not completely. Not much acne visits my skin so for the most part, I have flawless skin. Every girls dream!
One of my favorite features, by others and I would be my eyes as well as eyelashes. My eyes are hazel, the color of cat’s eyes, and glassy. Eyelashes I inherited from my father, they’re super long, often described as spider legs because they tend to spread out with the mascara. Yet I continuously get compliments on them.
Above my eyes would be my well-waxed, thin eyebrows with a slight curve. Some people get bushy eyebrows that look like caterpillars are just posted above your eye. Others get ones that have to be drawn on because they wax or shave them off. So yes, I am content with my eyebrows.
Mouths. Everyone has a different shape mouth. Some have really small ones where others have huge obnoxious ones. My mouth is average with two lips that are on the slightly larger side. To say the least, it looks like someone inflated them a tad bit. My teeth are probably most favorite. Braces are miracles. Going from having buckteeth, many gaps, and stained went to perfection. White teeth with no gaps and perfectly straight. Always squeaky clean and smooth, with almost no overbite. I can say the money my family paid for those braces for two years is worthwhile.
Cheeks are a funny thing. When you’re little and your grandparents say you have such chubby cheeks and pinch them. They say as you hit maturity your skin will stretch and your cheeks won’t be as chubby. Well I think I skipped that step. My cheeks are puffy, like a blowfish. Or when you have your wisdom teeth pulled. Yup, that’s my cheeks twenty-four seven.
To have a face, you have to have facial expressions. Whether you realize it or not. See I have my fake sad face, which is when I want to pull a guilt trip on someone. Get that bottom lip curled over my top lip and look at them with that puppy that wants those leftovers on your plate.
Also my “are you serious right now” face. Means you said something stupid or just pointless. Could also be my sarcastic face. And/or the face I disagree with something you said or did.
The most common face would have to be my smile. I am usually a genuily happy person with all smiles. Even when I’m the most down. I absolutely love showing that I am happy. As well as showing off those perfect teeth my family paid LOTS of money for!
Words can not even begin to explain how excited I am that you finally came . My first weekend that I don't have much planned . Able to sleep in since last weekend I wasn't able to do that . This week has brought me many tears , frustration , anger and yes , a little bit of happiness . Not too much though .
I am a senior , that is going through a very hard time in school . Why ? Well see , I am terrible in math . I mean TERRIBLE . It took me four times to take Algebra 1 , three times to take Geometry and now magically I need to pass Algebra 2 the first time ! It is putting me through a bunch of stress . Like how girls get preparing for their wedding . To be completely honest , the only reason I am pushing myself to do this is because I want to go to a four year . William Jessup University to be exact . My dream school , my everything right now ! But in order to get in , I must pass Algebra 2 .
The only good news I have concerning that right now is , I took a retake of my first test (got 56 percent) and got 70 percent . Don't ask me how it happened , it just did :)
Yesterday was probably my most upsetting day , not having to do with school . Afterschool my Mom and I were going to go get my new phone . I had to pee faster then a race horse could run , so we stopped at the house . Before I could go , my phone fell in the toilet . Never has this happened to me . I was beyond upset because I lost all my contacts , once again ! I got my new phone and went on Facebook and told everyone the deal . Later we charged the phone that fell in , and magically it worked ! Miracles really do happen :)
I am done complaning now :) How was your second week of school ? Please share , and make me feel better .
"A bright blue sky that begins to look like a river when you look at your reflection "
September 1st 2011 . As I sit outside I notice multiple things . Let's break this down ;
A bright blue sky that begins to look like a river when you look at your reflection .
The heat beating on the umbrella making me realize how much I take the air conditioner for granted .
Sound of air conditioners running all around me . Keepin' kids nice and cold .
The smell of a fresh , hot summer day . Smellin' the school day almost over .
High school kids aimlessly walking around . Avoiding sitting in class listening to yet another boring lecture a teacher has prepared for them today .
Grass greener then I have ever seen it . Must've put some miracle grow on it :)
Listening to rotc kids doing their physical training for the week . Makes me wonder how kids at such a young age can determine whether or not they want to be in the military or army . Good for them !
As I look down , I see the permanently stained gum cement . Why must kids be so rude and have no respect for their school ? There are garbage cans everywhere , c'mon ! :)
Those are just a few things I have noticed in the short time I sat outside . Care to tell me what you observed ? :)
